Sorry, I have to vent here.
I recently read in the news today that 65 Iraqis were found dead in Baghdad, with evidence of torture. It seems that Sunni & Shiites both have “death squads” that have self-appointed themselves mini-Hitlers to decide who should be living and who should not. This all smacks of some incredibly dark version of Dr. Seuss’s STAR-BELLIED SNEECHES, except the machine, in this case, kills.
I don’t know what to feel.
Because of personal experience, I know what it is like to have loved ones die. Experiencing the loss of a loved one is very hard, and possibly even lightyears beyond hard if that life is taken by someone else. I really feel for the people over there, I really do. However, I can’t hold onto that grief for long. No one can. We, as humans, weren’t designed to hold onto the “fight or flight” emotions. With grief, there has to be a point where you move on. Unfortunately, that isn’t possible with those outside the Middle East. The hate is perpetuated. The next generation is taught that only through killing. Nobody over there, at least the one’s vying for camera time, seemed to have figured out that once they stop trying to get back at each other; things might settle down. In America, things may not be incredibly safe here but we don’t have words like “jihad” in our dictionary.
Should I feel grief for these people? Should I feel anger because they aren’t doing anything to stop things? Should I feel pain? Should I mourn indefinitely? Should I feel frustration? Am I heartless if I stop feeling anything? Am I violent for considering the possibility of just thinking of seeing the whole area nuked and see the area start from scratch again?
The thing is: I also have to be able to function for my family. I can’t shut down and perpetually grieve for Middle Eastern nations. I have be able to provide for my family. I still see images of women, children, and other victims of explosions and gunfire. It hurts. I know how sacred life is to be seriously bothered by such a controllable loss.
It sucks. It sucks even more when these images are used for political gain and manipulation.